Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Sem Break

Has been almost a month since the last post, so....time to update myself here....let's see. I wanna talk about what I do at the day after the last fucking Performance Management paper. Bunch of us went for cinema- Resident evil after life, dinner, bowling, supper. Hmm, I love it when I got the chance to play, ease my mind and distract myself from thinking of the last paper, which is damn confusing.

It also has been kinda long time since the last time I went out with bunch of people going for fun. Kinda relaxing and big spending too, sob sob T.T..... Never really care about the money I spent till recently, cause finally I'll have financial problem as I overspent. But I guess, just cope with it, try to safe a little here & there, bla bla bla.....

Alright, I'll just skip n go to when I'm finally home. Lovely home sweet home. The truth is, I was shock when I reach home, we got a big ass 47 inches LCD TV. Damn. Cost about RM6.5k+. Wow, why in hell the TV is changed, since mommy already got a LCD TV in her room, just smaller. Well, might have lottery or something, don't care, cause it's SO MUCH FUN to watch in this size of screen. One word, HEAVEN.

That's how I spent 1st week of holiday, TV all day long with a big ass screen. XD Just during the weekend, I met some friends in our secondary school to visit our scout juniors. One word, DISASTER. How in hell they can operate in this way nowadays?? And the person in charge are on the other side, chatting with girl guides n kepo in their activities. DAMN IT. For sure they will know the word DISCIPLINE from me, when I'm attending the coming Special Training Camp, Gunung Jerai, end of November.

Talking about this, I'm totally in mood, and really look forward as this camp is designed for the Form 3's, to prepare them for next year, when they are becoming committee. From rumours, I heard that this batch has better potential, but it'll have to depend how they perform later. Just don't understand why kids nowadays are so spoon-feed, even when they call themselves scout. Hello?? This is Keat Hwa Scout, not other school, such a shame seeing them performing in this way.

What else.....Hmm....Oh ya, Movie day at Sg. Petani Village Mall. Watch The Legend of Garhoole and Wall Street, totally 2 different type of story line, but I do enjoy both. Kinda new experience for me to watch 2 movies in one day, but it's fun. XD We also do explore around the town for food, and damn, there's one stall, the laksa is damn nice n delicious, wish I can taste it again in future.

That's it for this entry, post up more update later.

-yeEvoN_Dutch-

Saturday, September 18, 2010

FIGHT



Came across a few blog entries, about family, friends, problem, vacation, outings and studies. Going to have my 2nd paper, Auditing at 2pm. Yet I'm still writing blog, well, just to relax a while and motivate myself to push harder. Make the BEST out of myself.

Having good grades brings a lot of stuff. At home, you can get anything you want, parents will not nag you, go anywhere, spend a lot n etc. Since this semester, mommy doesn't nag me that much anymore, cause I score 3.0 last term, but still I have that kind of pressure somewhere. Firstly is because of the mid-term results. Secondly, wanted to be better and have better grades. etc

Gosh, auditing is such a nerve racking subject. I worried the most about this subject, cause you see... To answer law, you can still copy it from the statue and will get at least half of the marks. Performance and AFA, still can work on those calculations. This??? Perhaps wish for some luck, the ability to bull logically at the exam paper and have good timing when answering the question.

Well, as I have written and paste these quotes on my wall.

NEVER GIVE UP/NEVER SAY DIE
STAY FOCUS
MAKE THE BEST OUT OF MYSELF

So, time to FIGHT and must score well in this paper.

-yEvoN_Dutch-

Saturday, August 7, 2010

-改变- CHANGE

“够力咯”。。。这三个字足以描述我现在的心情与状况。
怎么说呢? 很简单,答案就在于自己过分的自信和自大。

这让我想回上个学期约week 7 或 8 的时候,受到挺大的打击。 若没记错,应该是mid term的分数太低, 差点就不及格了。那时都不知怎么搞的,从那天起就差不多每天都往library去读书。一读,就读到final去了。就这样,上个sem的成绩,虽然没考到First Honor,但也考得不错哦。看到自己的成绩是,也感到很欣慰,毕竟终于,看到自己的成果。^^

应该就是这样吧,现在感觉自己,人不像人,鬼不像鬼。或许是有点太夸张,但却觉得如此。都已经是week 10了,却一点点紧张,害怕的心情都没。嗨,应该是过于的自信吧,读书的态度都是得过且过,临时抱佛脚。想起来,自己都想打自己一顿呐。

考Auditing竟然可以考到脸都青,看到题目手都阵,写的答案也是凭空想象。接着就是Company Law。明明就把所有重点背了,但写的时候竟然头脑一片空白,记一些忘记一些,想起来,感觉自己真行呀。Performance Management 叻,更劲,方程式(formula)都会记 错。自己明明在计算方面占优势的,现在呢?呸!AFA 1&2, 第一张,要怪就怪自己上个是不听课。Lecturer上课时所教的‘废话’,竟然是重要的部分,但考试的程度是有点难,所以真的是无话可说。第二张,比起上一张,却是简单了很多。说实在的,只要有复习和回答是细心点,这张纸,根本就是在送分。这一回,送分,我还给他discount,因为至少30分都已经回馈给他了。


这一切一切已经成了定局,再也改变不了。唯一能改变的,就是我的读书方式和态度。记得妈妈曾经说过,不要盲目的跟着别人的脚步或方式,因为适合他人,不一定适合自己。在这,不是要责怪任何人,只是我早就该看穿着一切一切。又不是没经历过,但就是不懂得做好措施。看见其他人repeat,就告诉自己不要fail, 因为repeat,好辛苦呀。我这个人真是有口说人,没口说自己。会告诉朋友不好好读书就会要repeat, 自己却正在慢慢的搭上这条不归路。repeat不是钱的问题,而是时间,面子与态度的问题。

临夜才读书,看来是确实的非常的不适合我。这种方式,只适合在做最后冲刺时在有效。还是像当初一样,坐在library的某个角落,专心的读书。口渴了,就去喝口水,肚子饿了,就去吃东西,有三急,就到厕所解决。虽然只是简单的动作和概念,却带来很大的意义。大老远来到这里读书,就是为了考好成绩嘛。

是时候戒掉平时糜烂的生活习惯,回到正常的读书生活。也是时候睡醒了。 该做出改变啦。希望 “亡羊而补牢,未为迟也”,可以应在我身上。

-改变- CHANGE

-yeEvoN_Dutch-

Friday, August 6, 2010

Harvey Two Face - Part 1

Harvey Two Face, one of the main character in Batman, which is topic for my blog entries. The message here is, everything have two sides or more, so just don't stay in one side, and never look at the other side.

During the last short semester, I recalled that there were more presentations than mid term test, which freak me out in the 1st week itself, as I hated and scared presentations. However, that semester is relaxing, and I score quite well. In the contrast, I have no presentations at all, but there'll be test to cover it. Initially I was happy, but turn out that somehow I prefer assignment + presentations, as I will learn more, rather than just studying whole day long.

Tests since week 7, from AFA, Auditing, Law & PM, and I'll be having AFA test 2 soon. Damn it. These lecturers are just expert in torturing students. When you know how to do, time is limited; when you don't, there are plenty of time for you, and facial expression turn to pale and green. How ironic. Hope that I won't have this for my coming test, I'll faint!!!

For some reason, friends just love to ask me to sit beside them, depending on me, some kind of stuff. *hahahahaha* I know what you're thinking, some just wanted some sense of calm & safety, while some really wanted to glance. But....you know what..... Glance as much as you want, cause I'm not even confident in my answers....Bottom line, just DON'T make us get caught together and DON'T disturb me.

Seriously, cheat in the exam hall?? What you're thinking?? Having free pass all the way to graduation, that's easy for you. But then, just cheat as much as you can, I don't think you can really cheat all the way to graduation, cause I know you won't, you'll get the karma, just wait. A Uni student cheating in exam hall, I have nothing much to say, will only curse you failing those 4 credit hours and assignment subjects, that enough. Cursing is enough.

Expressing one's dissatisfaction towards another is normal, but there are some people thinking that it is a problem. Seriously?? what's the problem of just speaking out your freaking asshole mind. Too much gold in your mouth is it?? So pathetic, childish, just can't give absolute answer. Gosh....

-yeEvoN_Dutch-

Monday, July 26, 2010

Up, Down, Left, Right

Few years back, my auntie go to some kind of event to learn fortune-telling (算命). Well, of course she utilizes her 'ability' and tell what our fate are based on our birth dates. For me personally, of course I only remember some negative stuff as that's what I'm interested in. One of it is, I will not have many friends in my life, I guess it has much to do with my personality and attitude which not many people understand me.

For the whole week 8, I'm being pissed off by a few d***ass which don't know that they are really pain in the ass. OMG Don't they sense something is wrong?? Alright, here goes the issues...

There are lots of seats, can't u just sit else where, so that I can place my stuff??
and....Don't ever do the same thing twice!! It's not your seat....Shit
Use your brain to think, don't send me rubbish text...
Please use some U level English...Don't use super low class Manglish.....
Don't make ppl do the job twice, read+ analysis before copy....
Come on, act like guy, stop acting innocent...
Don't tell stuff halfway, acting like you know lots of secret..Bull shit
Get a mirror for yourself, got face problem k??
Don't make me repeat the sentence....
If you ask me Q, I'll generously find the A for you, but please use ur eyes to see, ur brain to think, ,don't ask me back the Q again!!!

These are part of what I face last week, and finally got burst yesterday, when I'm in boiling point. I just don't understand how their brain function, till the point that they can just do these thing so naturally. Curse them!! Hope their meet same species of people in future, so that they'll know how we feel. If I can, I don't wish to be with them anymore. Just nerve racking... they make me show my worst attitude out, damn it.

I come across a few blog entries these few days, quite shocking when I saw the content. Blogging is good, as you can some part of people that normally not shown daily in their faces often. Maybe because of assign., I really can't stand it when I saw people use those low life manglish, come on, use some proper english. Wrong spelling or short form is ok, but don't ever ever use some alien language that only you alien can understand. Don't even know how to differentiate or use 'them'/'they', I think you can jump into Westlake or dig your own grave, cause there lots of graves in the main entrance into Kampar New Town.

For certain people, I just don't know what they are thinking. Honestly, I'm worry for the sanity both your future partner and u, u might just end up torturing yourself. If you don't share your feelings, how the hell people going to know you?? Now I seriously need a mirror, those that can reflect people's true personality. I'm sick of fakers and idiots whom are so **** about everything.

Well, that's me. Don't care u like or not, read this entry or not. Just like what my friend told me moments ago about Shakespeare, 'life is like a stage, where everyone act differently everyday', *something like this* . I might look just like how you thought I am, but don't trust your eyes, they only show exterior, not interior. I'm actually acting normal, it's abnormal in interior.
-That's me-

-yeEvoN_Dutch-


Wednesday, July 14, 2010

It's Year 2

I've been back here to Kampar for one and half months, and it sucks. I dunno why, but it doesn't went very well for me personally. I feel lonelier than ever...Why?? God knows...

I was looking forward for this semester actually......but... the more you want, it'll be harder to achieve...sigh. It's major subjects, what can you expect?? Easy like ABC?? Wait long long, and it'll never be so. Gosh, I guess I'm a bit emotionally unstable...trouble with lots of problems...

Studies is what we should do, and to be honest, I quite admire the style those Westerners apply, where you can just do whatever you want whenever you like. As we can see, the country there are much more better, advanced, happier. Studies is never a major thing for them, instead, doing what you're best in is the best interest for everyone. Then you look back at Malaysia, urghh.... Government require us to finish secondary school before going into the industry. Come on, won't you think it'll be too late to find your talent when you're already 18? Stupid government policy.

Alright, back to my year 2. Auditing, AFA, Performance Management and Company Law is such pain in the ass, more critical thinking than ever. I was wondering how am I gonna complete my studies, with these nerve-recking subject going on until year 3 sem 3?? siao eh....

If I can, I might consider migrate to somewhere else, to find a place where I don't need to face these stuff, and just do the stuff that I like, until I'm ready to go back into the reality again....

-continue dreaming-


Camping Fever

Just recall back....."When is the last time you go for a camp?"....Let me see.... October 2009, First Aid Camp in Gopeng, Perak?? nahhhh.... You don't call that camping.....Alright...Go back further, June 2008's Campfire Night?? nahhh....Didn't participate much, as I only go for one night.....Now I remember, December 2007's Carnival Camp, although that camp's quality does not reach my own level of carnival craziness. But still, it's the last major camp I join.

For a scout like me, from Keat Hwa 53rd Scout Troop, I myself considered most of us are true scouts inside our heart, society, community or what ever word you can use to describe. We do really apply what we learn into our lives now, and it gone pretty nice for us. For me personally, I think joining the troop changes me a lot, good and bad as well. I learn a lot which obviously what we can't learn from book, gain lots of experiences, exposure, human relationship, responsibility, cooperation, learn to be grateful, think from different perspectives, etc etc.... It gives sweet memories as I grow up. In short, I think in some perspective, I'm much more matured compared with some idiot peers that I encountered throughout my life.

OK....enough mumbling....back to the point. It seems like most of the scouts (of my peers of course) are having some kind of camping fever, as we couldn't join most of the camps organized by the troops ever since we graduated. So, there's an idea coming out from Yong Wee and Kher Yee, during one small gathering, to have a 2 days 1 night camping at Gunung Jerai. Oh man, there's lots of sweet and bitter memories gain from there. Then, after some discussion, phone calls, they decided to organize a 'song song' camp, for us, young rovers a camp. Great. It will be held 2 days later, as lots of things need to buy and prepare which will take only 1 day. Not bad I guess, just 1 day, and we settle most of the problems.

The next day, they go for shopping groceries at Tesco and Pacific for our food supplies. Neither I nor my brother go, because we are not so free on that day itself. So, the whole day was like waiting the time to pass so that we could go for camping.


Camp Day 1
Here we go... First, let's list down the participant: me, my brother Wey Chun, Suelyn, Chuu Ying, Yong Wee, Kher Yee and Calib. It's just 7 of us, but the whole car bonnet is full of foods and supplies. *Whoa* can you imagine?? 7 people, 2 days 1 night, we do have lots of things. What to do, this is our own kind of fun camp, it's all about fun.

Due to insufficient of seats, the girls and Yong Wee drive to G.Jerai, while the remaining 3 guys take bus. Oh my....let them recall the feeling of taking bus again, but this time without uniforms and heavy haversack. The guys are slower of course, but I think we waited about 1 hour before they reach. Then, we went up to half-mountain top...vroom vroom vroom...the van is real fast. Those feelings are just word-less, you can't possibly describe the feeling of going camping again. *hahahahhahaha* Hike hike hike, jalan jalan jalan....finally we're reach the campsite.

Now I know how bad my stamina is, sweating non-stop from the way down here. Perhaps I should spend more time on sport than sitting in front of my lappie. Build tents, collecting fire woods, look at the water supply, cook our lunch after we reach there. While building tents, there's some kind of plastic, yellowish, none of us know what it is....eewwwww..... then they joke that maybe Khai Shan didn't throw away that condom cause that tent that we found that thing is his. Gosh, can he just clean up after using? Eww....*hahahhaha*

After eating and cleaning up, we plan to go for water war. Sadly, the water is shallow and dirty enough which looks like 'leng teh' (herbal tea). *Yucks* no choice, we just take some photos, chat, place our legs in the super mini water fall, spend the whole afternoon there. From there, we could view across lots of greenish paddy field scenery. The view is totally breath taking, makes you feel like going out from city life. While 5 of us were chatting beside/on the water drain, my brother n Kher Yee just simply lay down on chair sleeping under a small shelter. and they did pay for it as, I think someone did splash some water on their face.

As it is getting darker, and we don't have light supply especially at the bathroom, we all rush to cook + eat dinner + shower before it gets too dark. The dinner are just splendid, gotta be the best dinner I ever get throughout my camping experience. Maybe we're too hungry, we finish dinner quite fast. *smile-happy*. After cleaning, we all just lie down on a huge fly sheet while enjoying the stars. How nice it is, spending the night like that, playing cards, eating junk food, drink hot drink as it is cold. Times pass, and we go to see the night view which is fabulous, n of course, taking lots of pictures for memories and for facebook too. From there, Iron Man is born, Kher Yee imitate I.M. by placing his torch on his heart while taking photo. Oh my, lots of jokes could happen here.

After that, we go back and just lay down again to spend the whole night chit chatting, playing butts, tickling people, taking stupid photo, share past scouting experience. Wow, I couldn't possibly imagine that Chuu Ying got lots of bad experiences that cause her to have the post of normal Committee Member. Kinda big secret to me. But, what to do, we can't reverse time. And of course, we also did call Shan Yi who is still in Penang on that time, and tell her how fun it is to camp. The day before she cursed us, but it failed cause no raining. Guess she's too childish in a way, can't she possibly think how many camps that we did not go, and she did attend those camps. Guess she's jealous in short.

DAY 2
Being waked up by Yong Wee's whistle in the morning, oh man... it makes me recall while I'm having camping as a junior scout. When I walk out of the camp, most of us has already wake up and start packing, cleaning and preparing breakfast of course. We have sardine+ bread+eggs+milo/nescafe/oat. Kinda full, maybe because most of us take brunch instead of breakfast. After that, we start cleaning utensils, tent, campsite, packing etc etc. There's lots of cooperation you could see. Of course, there's some entertainment from Iron Man-Kher Yee and Calib-Ip Man. Both are 20 n above, but still act like 4 year old child. haih~~ Guess these boys still have that child behavior some where in their heart.

As we finish, we hike up back where we need to take the van. Oh my, that's much more tougher than going down, sweating and panting non-stop. I think if I walk this path twice a day, guess I can throw away some weight and build some muscle. vroom..vroom..vroom.. It's getting warmer, so we know that it's time to back to reality and continue our life. Then we travel back to the city, and have tea at Nasmir. From there, all of us gather and wait to go home.

This is definitely the best experience, best semester break activity. Hope to do this more often. -Love these guys, they're the best-


-yeEvoN_Dutch-