A Pain In the Ass

'What a pain in the ass', a term that I've been like to use these few days, cause I really really can relate it to what is happening around me these days.

I've never been this stressed before, just for no reason, I feel like I'm gonna bust out, hitting stuff, saying some bad words. In short, it's my negative side, and frankly,I don't like it, it sucks. What can I do to reduce these? Hmmph...I really have no idea. Like my friend told me, sleep, eat, jump, sport, watch show, hang out, talk, yumcha, these will be the way to reduce tension, and a way not to show the negative side.

Gonna have a presentation this evening, not much preparation is done, cause basically I'm just presenting what I've done, not really a big deal. For some reason, I'm not worried about how I present, or how I manage it, I think I can just go through my own part peacefully, although I always get very very nervous when I'm standing in front. Hopefully it goes well.

However, I somehow got a vision or feeling that something funny gonna happen, and I'll just burst out, right in front of everybody, and it involves 2 person. Damn, it's just a strong feeling that something bad or funny gonna take place, but I don't want that to happen. It's just frustrating, for some reason, and what a pain in the ass.

Alright, it's late night, still got lots of stuff to do. Hopefully it just go on smoothly.

Till then

-yeEvoN_Dutch-

Ignorance is Bliss

When someone tells you something, if you don't like it, just fucking tell people that you don't like it. But sometimes you can't just do that, you gotta think what will happen then.

Perhaps I'm reckless and spitting out words that I shouldn't said, but the point is, I'm only speaking what is in my mind. Which most of the time, I have no idea how to do it. Well, easier said than done.

Have it ever occur that you just stand aside, and watch certain dramas that occurs on you friends, on you just sit/ stand there, just look and see. It's fun doing that, cause you're out of it, and could just make some comments, which will not harm you in any way possible. However, when you're in, you just wish that you're out of it. Damn.

It's a situation where you just does not want to be in, especially in a time like this. Assignments, presentations, finals, and FYP on the line. A lot of variables to be considered, which makes me think that ignorance is bliss. Sometimes, I think that it's a test of endurance, patient and friendship. I just need to go through this tough time.

It's tough you know, having to cope with all these. Having people that don't really speak out their mind, having people that just act selfishly for no reason, having people that thinks they have dragged your ass through everytime, family, results and others. I only want a simple and peaceful life, not full of dramas and faking. It's tiring, draining every fibre and brain tissue, and also the emotional problems.

What can I do?? Probably just ignore, and do my own thing, which I should do since ages ago. Hanging out, do some crazy stuff, back to hometown, eat, sleep, sports, and anything that could release all the tension, and pump in more positive energy.

Till then

-yeEvoN_Dutch-

Karma's a Bitch!!

I've always love watching Survivor from CBS, whereby I always relate what happen in the game, with the lifestyle I'm having right now. In season 20, the combo of Russell and Parvati has been taking on everyone's nerve, in short, juries hate them. And uhh....I just found a combo of them, which I've name "Parsell".

This Parsell has really on my nerve for more than a month now, as I looked as a dumbass for the incident that happened. Being in university means we gotta act like an adult, and be responsible for what we have done. For no reason, Parsell just act like a child, taking no responsibility, taking on people's nerve, and make enemies to everyone. I mean like, REALLY??

I don't care if you have seen this, but like you said, I DON'T CARE, same here with me. If you can do anything, I can too. I'm just a friend, not family.

For the company name, I do think that we may have done wrong. Perhaps people does write it down before us, as they have people to prove that. Their group is at the other corner, it may be our fault or negligence for not seeing that in the first place. Alright, 3 of us agree to change the name, as we hardly even found any info on it. You disagree, as we thought you have start your part, fine, we go over and discuss with them. In the end, both sides disagrees and have to draw lot.

We have won back the company, but had made an enemy to them, and also causes one of us to lose them as friends, maybe forever. How selfish is that act? What were you thinking? Do you realize the consequences of what had happen? Well, I do not live in your stomach or brain, so I don't know what you were thinking. And, I don't think you ever care anything, cause the way you handle your event proves a lot to me.

As time pass, it's time to pass up the assignments, and guess what, you have said that you have done nothing at all. What the hell is that? It's week 9 and you haven't do anything? Where is the logic of this whole thing. So, it makes things clear that you only go after the company for not wanting to lose on anything. That is very reckless, irresponsible and very selfish. What the fuck. What's the big deal on finding another company, it's not like it will take a month. Just a few days maximum. Making enemy to others without reason.

Whatever you do, fine. But DON'T EVER EVER mix my stuff with your's. I didn't choose the part, it's determined by drawing lots. Don't forget what you said, 'anything is fine with me'. Don't just think your part is the hardest, just think how you want to complete your part in time. Shit. Furthermore, your part has caused inconvinience to our editor. Don't complain about what you cannot find or cannot do, if people can do it, why don't you?

A lots of stuff is not being said, but does not mean it didn't occur or anything. Maybe you'll think like, 'why don't you tell me'. Really?? Will you listen in the first place? Perhaps you'll also think 'who are you to say or judge me like that', we do have. Just put yourself in our shoes before you said that.

Let's just say that, Karma's a real bitch, it bites you back. Damn