These few days, a lot of things have been bugging me, like to the max, causing my behavior to change occasionally. Where sometimes I would talk normally as usual on one hand, and then total silent later. Well, this kind of thing always happen when my head is full of stuff.
Hmm...Where should I start then?? Perhaps as per the title, my future career. Seriously, I have never thought of having a career in Singapore until few days ago, which makes me really think a lot, and also how to achieve my life target. Ok, everyone knows Singapore's job is very stress, but come on, high pay, high work load, make sense, and uhh.... the are more opportunity right there, compared to Malaysia. I mean like a job with a pay of $2000, really helps me a lot in paying off my debt (car and study loan) within 5 years, and still have a little savings, that can allow me to further my studies later on. I have always wanted to go overseas to study, getting a MBA, a fact that not much people know about it. By working in Singapore, I could fulfill my dream, and the payment, I could settle it on my own. Oh yeah, baby......on my own, no longer depending on family or getting a loan.
But, I'm still scared...like I've never work so far before. Getting to a place where you prefer to go shopping, not many close friends over there, barely know what's happening over there, etc etc. Its kind like a brand new challenge for me, to do something that no one around has done before. I've been looked down all my life, partly because of my own stupidity and laziness, and mainly living in my family's shadow. I don't ask for much, just that I want to out shine from the shadow, letting people know, I am yeevon, not just my parents' daughter. I wanted this recognition, it really means a lot to me.
So, I really have to get my ass up to prepare the relevant documents for applying a job, like real time. Not much time to waste, exams are coming up, assignments due, most importantly, my study life is gonna end, real soon. I think my own deadline gonna be by this weekend, really gotta send out those application, to see whether I stand a chance to get a job there, and then start getting torture for 3-4 years, and fulfill my dream.
Conversely, if I were to follow the status quo and work in Penang, man, I'm gonna be broke and even ask money from home, with no savings at all. I mean like a job with may RM2000, 90% of it I'm gonna spend on paying car and study loan, food, transportation and home only. There's still 10% left, but I think I'll just spend it without realizing it, maybe for entertainment hence, no savings at all. How can you possibly live in Penang without entertainment, its totally absurd, hence the no savings. Worse still, if I only get RM1800 after EPF, total broke before the end of the month, as the food there might be tasty, but expensive like hell. Unlike in Singapore, the food is affordable, granted that you earn sing dollar, instead of RM.
Well, that's my case for working in Singapore. On the mean time, I do not plan on telling anybody other than those who has already know it. Maybe my family, hopefully they will support my decision, since my first class honor brother absurdly does not want to work in Singapore with his excellent results. Perhaps, me, the shadow daughter/sister could really make this work, outlive myself, outshine and shock everyone when the time comes. Meantime, I need to search for potential company, start applying jobs, keep my mouth shut on my plan, and just BE PREPARED!
Hopefully this works for me, to have an achievement I've long craved. Suffer for 3-4 years to achieve my dream, what a plan...YEAH BABY~~~
until then
-yeEvoN-Dutch-
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